BB and Harley James’s First Date
44 Chapters About 4 MenBB and Harley James’s First Date marks a shift from treating Harley James chiefly as a possible shield against Ronald McKnight to finding his company genuinely appealing. The date begins under the sign of performance and protection: BB Easton arrives at Harley’s home imagining how McKnight might perceive them together. About an hour into their coffee outing, however, the image BB had constructed gives way to an unexpectedly comfortable impression of Harley himself.
Arrival and First Impression
BB reaches the date in a black Mustang hatchback that is new to her but nearly old enough to vote. She lurches it onto the curb and has to make herself release the steering wheel, a small moment that frames the visit as an undertaking requiring resolve. At the door, her attention fixes on the awkwardness of the greeting: she watches a black fingernail extend from her body to ring the bell, then wonders whether meeting Harley might require some secret knock or handshake. The comic overthinking gives way to the person who answers.
Harley appears at his mother’s run-down, 1970s-style, brown tri-level house. His messy blond pompadour, blue eyes, full lips, and self-assured expression make him look strikingly like Billy Idol to BB. That resemblance matters less as a celebrity comparison than as an immediate point of familiarity: it softens her sense that Harley is unapproachable and puts her at ease. The date thus begins with two opposite impressions in quick succession—her uncertainty at the threshold and the comfort produced by a recognizable image.
The Protective Idea Behind the Date
BB goes for coffee despite her doubts. In her imagined scenario, McKnight would see her with Harley from at least twenty-five yards away, while a coffee mug concealed the lower half of Harley’s face. The distance and partial concealment are essential to the fantasy: BB pictures not intimate knowledge of Harley, but the public effect of being accompanied by a handsome, grown man who could deter a bully. She even imagines Harley confronting McKnight if necessary. The protective role she assigns him precedes any real understanding of his character.
That plan reflects how recently McKnight’s abuse still weighs on BB. She acknowledges that her expectations for the afternoon are low, and her initial reservations include Harley’s teeth and intelligence. Her imagined benefit is consequently practical and strategic: being seen with Harley might change how McKnight regards her. Yet the actual date will not remain inside that calculation. As BB spends time with Harley, the possibility that he might serve as a counterweight to McKnight becomes only one part of what makes him appealing.
A Change in the Date’s Meaning
About an hour into the outing, BB realizes that she is beginning to like Harley. His appearance still evokes a punk-rock image, and his voice strikes her as rough and distant, but those features contrast with an easygoing, friendly, and cheerful manner. Instead of confirming her first doubts, Harley’s relaxed disposition becomes the date’s decisive discovery. BB finds it unexpectedly familiar, connecting it to the affectionate, pot-smoking, Woodstock-era hippies who raised her.
The contrast changes the emotional direction of the encounter. BB had arrived asking, in effect, what Harley could do for her in relation to McKnight; now she is responding to how he makes the date feel. Her assessment moves from low expectations to a sense that his calmness might be compatible with care and protection. The possibility of a confrontation remains part of her thinking, but it no longer exhausts her interest in him. The same man who first seemed difficult to approach now feels comfortable company.
Significance and Limits
By the end of the account, BB imagines Harley as someone who would not hurt her and might cherish and protect her. These are her hopeful conclusions during the date, not established facts about what follows. The distinction matters: the scene records the force of her impression, rather than proving that Harley will fulfill the role she gives him. Her confidence is built from his pleasant manner, the familiarity of his temperament, and the protective image she had already projected onto him.
The date therefore joins a strategic motive to a genuine emotional opening. BB initially considers Harley in relation to McKnight and the reassurance of being seen with a formidable-seeming man; she ends the afternoon considering Harley in his own right. That shift lays the groundwork for her rebound relationship with him without resolving its future. The event’s significance lies in this first change of emphasis: protection brings BB to the encounter, but Harley’s affability makes her want to continue beyond the plan she had imagined.